Sunday, February 22, 2009

Alone in the teeming crowd

Have you ever experienced this feeling of being all alone in this world with no one to turn to and there is no place you get that contentment and peace that you are looking for. When you are choked up till your throat and you just want to get a shoulder or an arm into which you can fall into and cry your heart out. And when you thought that you would get it from one of hundreds that are milling around in the crowd but nobody seems to even look into your direction and does not even seem to notice your distress that’s when you get the feeling of being ‘Alone in the teeming crowd’ .

This feeling makes you want to run to the ends of the world from the teeming crowd……. A place no man exists ……from all these people but you can’t you tied up with ropes and can’t move. Your choked up tears are threatening to break the barrier that has it contained but yet not one person in the crowd is extending that hand. It is really hard to hold onto your sanity at these moments.

These are moments when you get to really know the crowd that are swarming around you because you had always believed that this crowd cares for you and will always stand by you through thick or through thin but it seems like it never was that way.
It was always meant to be that you would be ‘Alone in the teeming crowd’

Friday, February 20, 2009

Life in Hyderbad

I have already written my experience of the first job has been very different from what most of my batch mates have experienced. My first thought, when I had joined the project that I am into now, was that I am going to quit and go sit at home. But my experience of the 1 year and more has made me realize that how shortsighted I was because I wouldn’t trade this time I have spent here with anything else how much ever enticing it might look or seem.

The friendship that blossomed here within the group that I got into is so strong that they are the extended family who look out for and take care of you here. The friendship and the time I spend here is making me wary of taking the next step in life because if I take it I am going to lose this and I really don’t want to lose this but want enjoy this as long as it lasts. I had heard a lot about the politics that is there in an office but then I never experienced that here instead it was like an extension of the life at college where we used to work together as a group in the assignments given to us. This could be because of the reason that the whole groups of us were fresher from MBA colleges and this was our first jobs and first project. And we were lucky enough to have Mckinsey consultants on this project who guided us in the work we did and incorporated in us their work culture which is so much different from the work culture seen in our country.

So instead of rivalry amongst us there blossomed a friendship which has been something which is really great. Now we are like the characters of the famous TV serial FRIENDS but of course without the romance angle that is present in the serial. :P

A blank canvas awaiting to be filled.............the random thoughts which seldom stop.....a spark