Sunday Evening blues

I do not know if others experience it but I suffer from Sunday evening blues. Yes, and it started quiet young since childhood actually.

It started during school days on the thoughts about the next day and normally even after having completed the home work and assignments I used to have this depressing fearful feeling in me which I absolutely detest .

Later on when I ended up in Bangalore in the hostel it just would not leave me alone but got a bit better over the years as my roommates and friends used to end up talking or doing something which used to take away my mind from this. But it used to surface once in a while when I used to see the sunset and the cloudy Sunday evenings during monsoons.

Now that I am working the feeling should have gone away since I do not have assignment and project for submission. But no I am not cured of it even now; I hate it when I get my Sunday blues. I end up feeling all alone and a totally bad depressed feeling. Essentially making me feel that after the Sunday morning it just goes on to being Monday mornings...taking away the Sunday evenings in between...

Rains

Opening up of the heaven is what I would describe the rains and the monsoon season to be. It brings out the romantic and the nostalgic moods in a person (personal experience). When I see the darkened and cloudy day in anticipation of the rain it just brings a queer but feel good ache in my heart. It brings back all the nostalgic memories from childhood and over the years that I fondly like to remember. It is also when I feel like penning down or blogging.

I do not know the reason why I feel so related to the rains and the monsoons. It could be because the day and time I was born it was raining heavily as my Mom recalls. I feel myself being re energized when I see the droplets of water falling in such torrents on to mother earth.

I have always played in the first rains of the monsoon during childhood. Seeing the rains today I wanted to play like during the old days but did not as I did not have anyone to accompany me in this feat here in Hyderabad. But I will drench myself in the rain once before the end of this monsoon season. :)